lost control and me

I gifted you the power of control 
But now I'm taking it back in whole 
My emotions are not for you to use 
This heart is done with being abused 
Sure I fell for your stupid ruses 
And it left me with some bruises 
But you can keep your dumb excuses 
The type of person you are has been proven 
Fuck your guilt trips and manipulation 
I'm so done with that complication 
I listened to your justifications 
Yet you wouldn't consider my explanations 
Two sides to each story but you only see yours 
It's time that you get up off that high horse 
You've done no wrong but you've been wronged instead 
That's the version that lives inside your head 
Fuck your dire need to cast blame 
It's all a clever avoidance game 
Can't handle truth about yourself 
So you gotta pin it on someone else 
Distort the facts for your agenda 
Bend reality to fit anger penned up 
Contradictions all around 
You just can't stand what I have found 
Deny the facts presented in clear view 
Hard to face that emotions had control of you 
Like it or not this whole love thing is strange 
It can cause a person to do things insane 
You can choose to cater to your ego and hide from undesirable results 
But do not blame others for choices that are your fault 
The reality is you lost control of yourself 
While trying to grab control of me 
And then you lost both 
An outcome you never could see